The plot of Not Quite A Husband piqued my interest, but I'm not sure if that's enough incentive to buy another one of her books. Maybe if I find it at a ubs, I might give her another try. Is it less frustrating than Private Arrangements? 
YES, and decidedly more romantic! It begins in the very depressing Indian wilderness because our heroine, after the scandal of the annulment that she had demanded, decided to eschew civilization altogether. So she was in God knows where when boom! Her ex-husband ambles from somewhere to inform her that her father is on her deathbed. She's skeptical of course, because ever since their annulment, her baby sister Callista had gotten it into her head that they belong together, and need to get back together, and a few outright lies had not stopped her before.
“Bryony,” he said at last. His head hurt, but he must speak to her.
She went still. The twig washed downstream, caught in a rock, then spun and floated free again. Still facing the stream, she wrapped her arms about her knees. “Mr. Marsden, how unexpected. What brings you to this part of the world?”
“Your father is ill. Your sister sent several cables to Leh, and when she received no response from you, she asked me to find you.”
“What’s the matter with my father?”
“I don’t know the specifics. Callista only said that the doctors are not hopeful and that he wishes to see you.”
She rose and turned around at last.
At first glance, her face gave the impression of great tranquility and sweetness. Then one noticed the bleakness behind her green eyes, as if she were a nun on the verge of losing her faith. When she spoke, however, all illusions of meek melancholy fled, for she had the most leavemebe voice he’d ever heard, not strident but stridently selfsufficient, and little concerned with anything that did not involve diseased flesh.
But she was silent this moment and reminded him of a churchyard stone angel that watched over the departed with a gentle, steady compassion.
“You believe Callista?” she asked, destroying the semblance.
“I shouldn’t?”
“Unless you were dying in the autumn of ninetyfive.”
“I beg your pardon?”
“She claimed you were. She said you were somewhere in the wastes of America, dying, and desperately wanted to see me one last time.”
“I see,” he said. “Does she make a habit of it?”
“Are you engaged to be married?”
“No,” he said. Though he should be. He knew a number of beautiful, affectionate young women, any one of whom would make him a suitable spouse.
“According to her you are. And would gladly jilt the poor girl if I but give the command.” She did not look at him as she said this last, her eyes on the ground. “I’m sorry that she dragged you into her schemes. And I’m much obliged to you for coming out this far—”
“But you’d rather I turned around and went back right away?”
Silence. “No, of course not. You’ll need to rest and reprovision.”
“And if I didn’t need to rest or reprovision?”
She did not answer, but turned away from him. Then she bent down, retrieved a fishing rod, and reeled in something that was struggling to escape. Weeks upon weeks of trekking across some of the most inhospitable terrains on Earth, sleeping on cold, hard ground, eating what he could shoot and the occasional handful of wild berries so he wouldn’t be weighed down by a train of coolies carrying the usual necessities deemed indispensable for a sahib’s travelsand this was her response.
One should never expect anything else from her.
“Even the boy who cried wolf was right about the wolf once,” he said. “Your father is sixty-three
years old. Is it so unlikely for a man of his age to ail?”
With a deft turn of her wrist, she unhooked the fish and dropped it into the bucket. “It is a six-week journey to England, on the off chance that Callista might be telling the truth.”
“And if she is, you will regret not having gone.”
“I’m not so certain about that.”
Her ambivalence toward most of Creation had once fascinated him. He’d thought her complicated and extraordinary. But no, she was merely cold and unfeeling.
“The journey need not take six weeks,” he said. “It can be done in four.”
She looked back at him, her expression unyielding. “No, thank you.”
It was 370 miles from Gilgit, where he’d been peacefully minding his own business, to Leh, that much again back to Gilgit, then 220 miles from Gilgit to Chitral. For most of the way he’d done three marches a day, sometimes four. He’d lost a full stone in weight. And he hadn’t been this tired since Greenland.
Fuck you.
“Very well then.” He bowed slightly “I bid you a good day, madam.”
“Wait,” she said, then hesitated.
He turned around halfway.
When she’d fallen in love with him, he’d been that magical manchild, with the beauty of a dark-haired Adonis and the playfulness of a young Dionysus. She couldn’t think of anyone else who’d have gotten away with that song about a coldblooded duchess and her very hot teapot, which had a threeinch spout that could nevertheless “fill all the right cups, be they shallow or deep, and then to patiently, lovingly steep.”
Toward the end of their marriage, he’d already lost some of that deceptively cherubic sweetness to his looks. Now his profile had become angular and precipitous, like the bleak heights that concealed the Kalash Valleys.
“Are you leaving now?” she asked. She was conflicted it about it, but it would be churlish to not at least offer him tea.
“No. I have promised to take tea with your friends, Mr. and Mrs. Braeburn.”
“You met them already?”
“They were the ones who directed me to you,” he answered, his tone matter of fact, but with an edge of impatience.
Suddenly she was alarmed. “And what did you tell them about us?”
Surely he would not have given the Braeburns an account of their short,
infelicitous history.
“I didn't tell them anything. I showed them a photograph of you and asked if I might be able to find you here.”
She blinked. He had a photograph of her? “What photograph?”
He reached inside his jacket, pulled out a squarish envelope, and held it out toward her. Beyond weariness, his expression gave away nothing. After a moment of hesitation she wiped her hands with a handkerchief, walked to him, and took the envelope from his hand.
She opened the unsealed flap of the envelope and pulled out the photograph. Her retinas immediately burned. It was her wedding photograph. Their wedding photograph.
“Where did you get this?”
He'd moved out of their house in Belgravia the day after she'd asked for an annulment, leaving behind his copy of their wedding photograph on his nightstand, which she'd fed to the grate along with her copy.
“Charlie gave it to me when I passed through Delhi.” Charles Marsden was Leo's second eldest brother, formerly political officer at Gilgit, another forward station on the Indian frontier, currently personal aide to Lord Elgin, Viceroy and GovernorGeneral of India. “I suppose he didn't get the hint when I didn't take it with me, because he sent it again by post.”
“What did the Braeburns say after you showed them the photograph?”
“That I'd find you fishing upstream by the water mill.”
“Did they—did they recognize you?”
“I believe they did,” he said coolly.
Surely, none of this was real. The man who had once been her husband was not standing before her, smelling of horse and road dust and speaking with a voice scratchy with fatigue. He did not mean for her to travel with him. And he had not exposed her as a sham to the kind and decent Braeburns.
“And what will you tell them now, when you sit down to tea?”
He smiled, not a very nice smile. “That will depend wholly on you. Were we to start our journey immediately after tea, I would compose a lovely tale of forced separation, heartwrenching mutual longing, and a joyful reunion here in this most inaccessible of locales. Otherwise, I'll tell them we are divorced.”
“We are not divorced.”
“Let's not split hairs. It was a divorce in everything but name.”
“They will not believe you.”
“And they will believe you who, until a quarter hour ago, was a widow?”
She took a deep breath and turned her head. “It cannot be helped. To me, you no longer exist.” From time to time she would be at the most incidental activity—lacing her boots or reading an article on the adhesion of the intestine to the stump after an ovariotomy—and a physical memory would barrel out of nowhere and mow her down like a runaway
carriage.
The boutonnière he'd worn the evening he first kissed her, a single stephanotis blossom, pure white, as tiny and lovely as a snowflake.
The sensation of raindrops on warm wool as she placed her hand on his sleeve—he'd come personally to the curb to see her into her carriage—and the wonderful stillness of her world as he said, smiling, through the stillopen carriage door, “Well, why not? It should be no hardship to be married to you.”
The almost prismatic glint of sunlight on the fob of his enameled watch—which she'd given to him as an engagement present. He held it suspended in midair, staring at its pendulum swing, while she asked for his cooperation in obtaining an annulment.
But mostly those upsurges of memory were nothing but ghost pains, nervous misfires from limbs that had been long since amputated.
To me you no longer exist.
He moved as if in recoil. As if he flinched. When he spoke, however, his voice was wholly serene. “Divorced it is then.”
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So many books, so little time.